I can see clearly now...

So two songs have constantly been playing in my head today.  One is the old hymn "At the Cross".  We sang it at the church we attended yesterday.  It is a favorite hymn of mine, and I have had it going through my head, which is certainly not a bad thing.  The other song is an oldie,  "I can see clearly now the rain is gone."  Both songs have to do with having a happy and bright day.  With "At the Cross", the chorus ends with "And now I am happy all the day", and with "I can see clearly" the chorus ends with "It's going to be a bright bright bright bright sun shiny day".

I need to see clearly today.  Even though I have the greatest gift of salvation, I am not living out my "happy all the day" like I am suppose to.  I am still focusing on the fact that I can't see the future clearly, and it is still scaring me.  I am still burdened by the unknown.  The fear of the future is still hovering over me, and just another "fear" to add to my list.  This sin of fearing the future is preventing me from seeing clearly.  I need to be looking clearly at the many blessings and not the unknowns.  Looking clearly at the fact that God IS working in my life.  Looking clearly for further instruction and guidance.  Looking clearly at His love and the light He is providing in my life.

I was singing the second song because of a pep talk my husband was giving me yesterday.  We have been talking about the unknown again this weekend.  Our house was viewed by two families this weekend.  Will they buy?  If so, what will we do?  You have all heard me ask the questions before, but the questions are still there.  Where to go to church?  Where to send our daughter to kindergarten?  Should we keep the house for sale?  All these questions, and when is God going to point us in the clear direction???  During the pep talk, my husband said, "We will be able to see it clearly once it has all been worked out."

Well of course we can see it then silly!  But what if I want to see it before it happens?  How can I handle not seeing clearly now?  I pictured myself singing this song once God's plan is revealed.

First I am so thankful for a patient God who forgives me with all my faults and fears.  I am also thankful for my patient husband who tries to help me see past my fears and keep me focused on God's will for our lives.  I am also thankful that even though I was having a whiny, what do we do,  kind of weekend, I am able to be renewed each day.  This verse has been resonating in  my mind this weekend,  "For which cause we faint not (we do not lose heart); but though our outward man perish, yet the inward man is renewed day by day."  2 Cor 4:16.

I wanted to lose heart this weekend and focus on the scary unknown.  Thankfully each day our inward self is renewed by our faith in Jesus.  Each day is a new start, a fresh start, and a new chance to focus on Him.  I might not be able to see the future clearly, but I can see Jesus clearly in His Word, and in hymns, and in our daily lives.

Today's Verse
"WHEREFORE seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience (perseverance)  the race that is set before us."  Heb 12:1

I am laying aside my fear of the future today.  I am not saying I might never pick it up again, but I am laying it aside today.  I want to be "happy all the day", and to do so I cannot run with any baggage.  Fear is baggage.  This race that is before us is our life that God has granted us with.  To run it for Him we must not lose heart; we must be renewed; we must persevere, and we must focus on the goal which is living for God and not living in fear.  We can see clearly when we know He is running along side us and cheering us on with every step.