Don't have a bad attitude!
Don't pout and whine!
Always smile when we are out and about!
Just a few things I say to my girls and frequently remind myself to do also. I do not want to be a Mommy that says, "Do as I say, not as I do".
Well, the phrase took on a whole new meaning yesterday. I had a little voice whispering that phrase to me regarding the Tuesday post. We talked about watching out for leaks in terms of watching out for anger and not forgiving in our lives. Now I had honestly asked the Lord to show me any area in my life where I might be harboring bad feelings or maybe even needing to do some forgiving myself. Our family has suffered some enormous hurts over the 2011 year, and I wanted to make sure there were no leaks in my own heart.
Well, little did I know or even realize...a leak had sprung!!!!
It was not from the hurts I had on my mind. It was completely different. It was very unexpected. It was a very bad attitude, and it was in my heart and mind.
We made the long drive to my husbands work yesterday. The further down the road we went, the sadder I got. His plant is closing, and this would be one of the last times making the trip. It would be one of the last times seeing his coworkers. This would be one of the last times watching the girls run through the offices and conference rooms, and trying their best to escape to the sewing machines. My mind then started racing with the why's and the how's? Why were they closing the plant? How could this happen? We prayed so hard. This was affecting so many people. Oh it is not just the 100 employees losing their jobs and lively hoods. But this effects the surrounding businesses that depend on those employees to buy lunches and get gas and all the other little stores and shops near by.
I started to realize I was harboring lots of resentment and even anger towards people I have never even laid eyes on. I have not met the executives that made this decision. I do not even know their names. But, I was mad at them, and not just a little mad...the further I drove the more mad I realized I was.
That's when the Voice started, "Practice what you preach. You just talked about this yesterday. Do not become hard hearted towards these people. Forgive and move on. There is a plan."
Yes I know God has a plan and reason for this happening. I had accepted that part. But, I needed to do some major forgiving to the unnamed people who announced the decision to shut the doors.
"I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help. My help cometh from the LORD, which made heaved and earth." Psalms 121:1-2
We depend on God to get us through this. We depend on Him to show us our next steps. And I depend on Him to help me forgive the people I do not even know, and to not harbor any resentment towards them. He will help me forgive. He will provide answers. He will help me seal the leaks before any damage is done!
We left, and yes I had shed a few tears with coworkers. The girls had sung songs and had their picture made with a few of the ladies. My heart was heavy, but I was also relieved the Lord had shown me an area I needed to work on. The reason why I chose the popular verses above is because the peace that washed over me as I got on the road came from the playing of my most favorite Contemporary Christian song ever! It was Casting Crows' "I will praise you in this storm". I was so thankful for that song at that moment, and oh how thankful I am He reminded me to "Practice what you preach."
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